Whether the operation would likely work in the way I want it to work is the main thing to think about. There’s a chance I could be worse off visually afterwards. Such an operation would effectively re-set the clock to zero as far as recovery is concerned. The other thing to think about is whether I would have any further recovery as I am now.
Money isn’t the problem and insurance would probably cover a good bit of it at least, I think.
What pisses me off is it took 18 months for me to see a scan that demonstrated that my retina had shifted from its original position even after me asking several people this question and even then it was a UK consultant who was working over here temporarily who showed me such a scan. I saw another such scan the other day. This should be basic enough information to give to a patient.
A doctor told me recently that a 50/50 chance of successful surgery is often better odds than they quote. It’s partly an arse-covering exercise and also designed not to inflate expectations.
Obviously it’s a different part of the body, but I’ve had a serious and ongoing knee issue and it finally gave out on me earlier this year. The surgeon was reluctant to go for full replacement because of my age but gave the exact same 50/50 spiel about the alternative surgery that he could carry out. I went with it and it’s worked a treat. I brought it up with him at a subsequent visit and he told me the above story.
Go get it done. It’s highly unlikely that it will make it worse.
It would help with focussing I imagine and remove the double vision issue but as far as wanting to be blind in an eye that’s an impossible question to answer and my instinctive answer is no, I wouldn’t be better off, even though I’ve probably said otherwise frequently at times over the last two years. It would probably create further depth perception issues too. Even with distorted vision, a gammy eye can help a good bit bit with depth perception though depth perception is not as good as it was.
If they film the next Pirates of the Caribbean here for the tax breaks, you could have a late blossoming acting career like Gabriel Byrne. Just get onto one of those crazy ‘eunuch maker’ maniacs for the wooden leg part. I’m fairly sure they sell Parrots in Wackers on Parnell St…which is owned by the father of former boxer Anthony Fitzgerald, who ran Andy Lee close in a fight and carried Gary Hutch’s coffin in the first death of the infamous feud. Either way, I wish you strength and mental clarity in the decision making process.
Also, you’re Irish. Stay alive to spite people. It’s what we do.
Just out from my first hypnotherapy session. I would be lying if I said I didn’t feel better. Your man got to the root cause of my depression/anxiety rather than tackling the symptoms.
How I’ll feel in two days is another story, but I’ll give it a cautious thumbs up for now.
Your man Eckhart Tolle talks about the pain body. Basically a pile of negative emotion inside you which hasn’t been expressed but which bursts out from time to time and takes over your thinking making it very negative and obsessional.
Too many questions to reply to everyone individually. So I hope this answers most of them.
I wasn’t totally under, I was aware of my surroundings but I equate it to just beginning drifting off to sleep. Except when he brought me back, it was like I had slept for 6 hours
(I was under for 45 minutes). He kept talking to me all the way through, I wasn’t all that comfortable for the first 15 minutes but I gradually became more at ease as the time wore on.
He got me to tackle my issue from where and when it first occurred in my teenage years. Took the 40 year old me back to talk to the 15 year old me, and to be there at the places & times where I first felt those anxious moments.
It’s not a panacea at all (well not yet) but I have a burst of energy and clarity at the moment that I haven’t had in years.
I’ve had overwhelming anxiety since June so this hyponotherapy is a case of last chance saloon for me.