No.
She didnāt want me at the birth, it was filled in before I could even bring it up and my parents in their wisdom believed she was lying and told me to get a DNA test.
Shelled out hundreds to find out 6 weeks later it was 99.9999999% my childā¦
Birth certs long forgotten.
They let me down then but they donāt owe me much.
Iām shaking here. Iām going to go for a stroll. Youāre amazing.
I was very close to the edge. I was actually ready to hit the streets yesterday because it was too much, I couldnāt see a way. I wanted to be gone.
Iāll chip in whatever you need to help sort this.
BUT, you need to straighten yourself out, pal. Clear the head fully, youāre looking at a shitty couple of weeks getting straight again but you are at nothing if you donāt. Sure as fuck those 2 cunts in Poland are going to fight fire with fire so be ready.
As Glas said, book yourself into a few AA meetings. Clear your chest at them, find another way to vent.
As I said, listen to Art & make sure and talk personally to him. Make a proper plan of action.
Drop me a PM if your want, Iām up in South Dublin - Wicklow area next week if you need any help with anything.