I'm a whiney bitch who can't drink for shit these days

[Thrawneen]

@SHANNONSIDER

If the forum’s Dean Moriarty can feel this way it can happen to anyone. In all seriousness lads, keep vigilant against the FEAR and suicide, we’re coming into the red zone as regards that business, with the changing of the seasons, the blackness of the nights, the overcast weather, November is the suicide black spot, a fella could just go over the edge. Watch out for each other out there fellas.

You know what? I have no problem admitting that I often feel suicidal. I don’t like that it’s a taboo. I don’t believe in dog and his angels and the holy spirit and heaven and hell so it’s not exactly a big deal. As I said, it’s only the fact that I’d also be killing my parents, and in particular my dad, and would comdemn my little fella to a life of hurt that I would never do it. I come from a cynical, self-obsessed and spoilt generation and no matter how much I try to make up for this, there’s a feeling of emptiness a lot of the time. I’ve made love to beautiful women from all around the world but am too jaded and cynical to actually love anyone. The girl from my work thinks the world of me and seems to be crazy about me but I’m meeting a Brazilian bird on Wednesday for some fun. What does that make me? A cunt? Probably.

None of this is cool. But, fuck it, we’ve Champions League this week, Huddersfield are taking on those horrible Posh cunts tomorrow night etc etc Keeps one going.

What does it all mean?

[Thrawneen]

@mickee321

+1 Thrawneen is close right now, if this was November id fear we could hear “man down” alarm echoing thru TFK halls. quitting a job isnt as easy as fellas make it out to be if you are broke and have dependents ( im not saying thrawnen is either BTW) right now id be focusing on trying to find something else, be it emmigration or finding another job, but dont quit this job now if its going to nosedive you into immiediate financial difficultues as you will be 100% a gonner by january. you need a target to work to, an escape plan, something to aim for, without this you are dust what i would do is focus all your time now into finding something now, see the job you have now as a means of just getting you money to get you by until you have an escape plan formulated. Try to completely switch off when you go into work, just do your tasks and leave when you have to, do not get involvd in any form of talk with those around you, remember, this is work, you are not here to develope friendships or relationships or think or be exposed to others emotions, you are here only to provide a service, you do that, you get paid for it, do not personalise your work. ever, they most certainly couldnt give a fuck about you, do your job, get it done on time, keep the head down, leave when you are finished, dont go for lunch with them, dont talk to them ( except be professional when needed in tean scenarios, again never , ever show emotion, its a weakness and bosses prey on it). See this current job as a means to keeping you afloat as you work on developing a plan to do something else , that s all, fuck this career shit, anyone who believes or buys this is a retard… you work for money, thats all… right now , you are working with these cunts ONLY to get money… you know you hate this place… get thinking on what you want to do in the future, would like to do with yourself, a place u’d like to live, spend time thinking about yourself and your future, that all thats important…

Cracking post mickee

[Bisto]

@Thrawneen

You know what? I have no problem admitting that I often feel suicidal. I don’t like that it’s a taboo. I don’t believe in dog and his angels and the holy spirit and heaven and hell so it’s not exactly a big deal. As I said, it’s only the fact that I’d also be killing my parents, and in particular my dad, and would comdemn my little fella to a life of hurt that I would never do it. I come from a cynical, self-obsessed and spoilt generation and no matter how much I try to make up for this, there’s a feeling of emptiness a lot of the time. I’ve made love to beautiful women from all around the world but am too jaded and cynical to actually love anyone. The girl from my work thinks the world of me and seems to be crazy about me but I’m meeting a Brazilian bird on Wednesday for some fun. What does that make me? A cunt? Probably.

None of this is cool. But, fuck it, we’ve Champions League this week, Huddersfield are taking on those horrible Posh cunts tomorrow night etc etc Keeps one going.

What does it all mean?

think you’ve answered all your questions in that post pal…and there’s nothing wrong with banging birds and moving on if thats what your into at this point in your life…unfortunately a lot of irish blokes seem to think that women don’t use them in exactly the same way…

[Whiplash]

@mickee321

+1
Thrawneen is close right now, if this was November id fear we could hear “man down” alarm echoing thru TFK halls.
quitting a job isnt as easy as fellas make it out to be if you are broke and have dependents ( im not saying thrawnen is either BTW)
right now id be focusing on trying to find something else, be it emmigration or finding another job, but dont quit this job now if its going to nosedive you into immiediate financial difficultues as you will be 100% a gonner by january.
you need a target to work to, an escape plan, something to aim for, without this you are dust

what i would do is focus all your time now into finding something now, see the job you have now as a means of just getting you money to get you by until you have an escape plan formulated.
Try to completely switch off when you go into work, just do your tasks and leave when you have to, do not get involvd in any form of talk with those around you, remember, this is work, you are not here to develope friendships or relationships or think or be exposed to others emotions, you are here only to provide a service, you do that, you get paid for it, do not personalise your work. ever, they most certainly couldnt give a fuck about you, do your job, get it done on time, keep the head down, leave when you are finished, dont go for lunch with them, dont talk to them ( except be professional when needed in tean scenarios, again never , ever show emotion, its a weakness and bosses prey on it).
See this current job as a means to keeping you afloat as you work on developing a plan to do something else , that s all, fuck this career shit, anyone who believes or buys this is a retard… you work for money, thats all… right now , you are working with these cunts ONLY to get money… you know you hate this place… get thinking on what you want to do in the future, would like to do with yourself, a place u’d like to live, spend time thinking about yourself and your future, that all thats important…

Some cracking advice there.Follow that and you wont go too far wrong Thraw.Whatever you do dont personalise your work and come half 5 when you walk out the door forget about it.I hate my job with a passion but just passing time until something better or more tolerable comes along.

[Whiplash]

@mickee321

+1
Thrawneen is close right now, if this was November id fear we could hear “man down” alarm echoing thru TFK halls.
quitting a job isnt as easy as fellas make it out to be if you are broke and have dependents ( im not saying thrawnen is either BTW)
right now id be focusing on trying to find something else, be it emmigration or finding another job, but dont quit this job now if its going to nosedive you into immiediate financial difficultues as you will be 100% a gonner by january.
you need a target to work to, an escape plan, something to aim for, without this you are dust

what i would do is focus all your time now into finding something now, see the job you have now as a means of just getting you money to get you by until you have an escape plan formulated.
Try to completely switch off when you go into work, just do your tasks and leave when you have to, do not get involvd in any form of talk with those around you, remember, this is work, you are not here to develope friendships or relationships or think or be exposed to others emotions, you are here only to provide a service, you do that, you get paid for it, do not personalise your work. ever, they most certainly couldnt give a fuck about you, do your job, get it done on time, keep the head down, leave when you are finished, dont go for lunch with them, dont talk to them ( except be professional when needed in tean scenarios, again never , ever show emotion, its a weakness and bosses prey on it).
See this current job as a means to keeping you afloat as you work on developing a plan to do something else , that s all, fuck this career shit, anyone who believes or buys this is a retard… you work for money, thats all… right now , you are working with these cunts ONLY to get money… you know you hate this place… get thinking on what you want to do in the future, would like to do with yourself, a place u’d like to live, spend time thinking about yourself and your future, that all thats important…

Some cracking advice there.Follow that and you wont go too far wrong Thraw.Whatever you do dont personalise your work and come half 5 when you walk out the door forget about it.I hate my job with a passion but just passing time until something better or more tolerable comes along.

[SHANNONSIDER]

@Thrawneen

You know what? I have no problem admitting that I often feel suicidal. I don’t like that it’s a taboo. I don’t believe in dog and his angels and the holy spirit and heaven and hell so it’s not exactly a big deal. As I said, it’s only the fact that I’d also be killing my parents, and in particular my dad, and would comdemn my little fella to a life of hurt that I would never do it. I come from a cynical, self-obsessed and spoilt generation and no matter how much I try to make up for this, there’s a feeling of emptiness a lot of the time. I’ve made love to beautiful women from all around the world but am too jaded and cynical to actually love anyone. The girl from my work thinks the world of me and seems to be crazy about me but I’m meeting a Brazilian bird on Wednesday for some fun. What does that make me? A cunt? Probably.

None of this is cool. But, fuck it, we’ve Champions League this week, Huddersfield are taking on those horrible Posh cunts tomorrow night etc etc Keeps one going.

What does it all mean?

+1 La tristessa durera toujours, sadly that’s the way things are, bitter self-loathing and loneliness interspersed with fleeting ecstasy, elusive happiness and minor, inconsequential victories.

[Thrawneen]

@Whiplash

Some cracking advice there.Follow that and you wont go too far wrong Thraw.Whatever you do dont personalise your work and come half 5 when you walk out the door forget about it.I hate my job with a passion but just passing time until something better or more tolerable comes along.

I do my best, but I find it hard to switch off. I’ve had many sleepless nights thinking about some load of bollocks work situation.
Maybe I’ll get better at it. Certainly realised today that there’s little point in breaking your bollocks for the cunts as there’s absolutely nothing to be gained from it.

[Horsebox]

@Thrawneen

I do my best, but I find it hard to switch off. I’ve had many sleepless nights thinking about some load of bollocks work situation.
Maybe I’ll get better at it. Certainly realised today that there’s little point in breaking your bollocks for the cunts as there’s absolutely nothing to be gained from it.

If you’re finding it that hard to switch off or you are thinking about work after 5:30 then you need to get the fuck out of there. I did a job that utterly consumed my life about 5 years ago and when I look back at it now I wonder why I stuck it for so long. If it suits your employer to get rid of you, they would do it without a moment’s hesitation-you should always keep that at the back of your head when thinking about work. Bang the shit out of that Brazilian dolly on Wednesday night and the world will be a much better place. They may have small breasts and large arses but their enthusiasm in bed more than makes up for it and you will have a great time.

[balbec]

[quote=“Thrawneen, post: 571453”]

I do my best, but I find it hard to switch off. I’ve had many sleepless nights thinking about some load of bollocks work situation.
Maybe I’ll get better at it. Certainly realised today that there’s little point in breaking your bollocks for the cunts as there’s absolutely nothing to be gained from it.[/quote]

It is easier said than done to switch off but you have to try and do it. I was going to say get some exercise but i see you have that covered Wednesday night:) mickees advice is spot on actually. Make a plan for yourself. In fairness you are just back from holiday, that can be very stressful too.

[Rudi]

Hope things brighten up for you Thraw. Feeling a bit down myself today - not drink related.

[glasagusban]

@Il Bomber Destro

Hope things brighten up for you Thraw. Feeling a bit down myself today - not drink related.

+1

[Thrawneen]

Thanks lads. It’s just frustration at being on a shit wage with poxy increments with no chance of promotion and any good work done not being appreciated. And then you have the “you’re lucky to have a job” brigade. If wages are cut again in the Budget then I’d nearly be better off on the dole. At least I could see my young lad more often. I know there’s plenty of people worse off than me, and fellas who would kill to have my job but that doesn’t mean one can’t get royally pissed off with it every now and again. I got to 30 and I feel like that’s it. Everything is done. And what’s there to look forward to? Not a whole heap. What’s the fucking point. I don’t know. FML, as tinnion might put it.

[Bandage]

What about your little beard, Thrawneen? Do you still have it? You should focus on that - grooming it and shaping it to add some purpose to your life.

[Thrawneen]

@Bandage

What about your little beard, Thrawneen? Do you still have it? You should focus on that - grooming it and shaping it to add some purpose to your life.

My beard is the only constant in my life, Bando me ol pal. Keeps me going. Gimme a hug next we meet, mate. I could use one.

[Bandage]

[quote=“Thrawneen, post: 571460”]My beard is the only constant in my life, Bando me ol pal. Keeps me going. Gimme a hug next we meet, mate. I could use one.
[/quote]

Great stuff.

I’m growing a beard at the moment so I can join in the exciting beard maintenance conversations Clarkey and Rocko have in The 51.

Rocko, can we get a beard smiley for Thrawneen please?

[anon61956325]

@Thrawneen

You know what? I have no problem admitting that I often feel suicidal. I don’t like that it’s a taboo. I don’t believe in dog and his angels and the holy spirit and heaven and hell so it’s not exactly a big deal. As I said, it’s only the fact that I’d also be killing my parents, and in particular my dad, and would comdemn my little fella to a life of hurt that I would never do it. I come from a cynical, self-obsessed and spoilt generation and no matter how much I try to make up for this, there’s a feeling of emptiness a lot of the time. I’ve made love to beautiful women from all around the world but am too jaded and cynical to actually love anyone. The girl from my work thinks the world of me and seems to be crazy about me but I’m meeting a Brazilian bird on Wednesday for some fun. What does that make me? A cunt? Probably.

None of this is cool. But, fuck it, we’ve Champions League this week, Huddersfield are taking on those horrible Posh cunts tomorrow night etc etc Keeps one going.

What does it all mean?

No better time to immerse your self in the writings of Neitzsche, Dostoyevsky, Kierkegaard and Tolstoy.

[carryharry]

Pray for Thraw people.

Next time this cunt at work hops off you at work after you return from holidays, drop the fucker!

The boys are right, clock in and clock out work wise. Its whats on the outside that counts most lad.

[Thrawneen]

@ChocolateMice

No better time to immerse your self in the writings of Neitzsche, Dostoyevsky, Kierkegaard and Tolstoy.

Did a couple of philosophy modules in UCD when I was in college there a couple of years ago. Possibly my downfall. Existentialism is grand in theory, but it’s not much cop if you’re not feeling too happy with your current existence.

[SHANNONSIDER]

@Thrawneen

Did a couple of philosophy modules in UCD when I was in college there a couple of years ago. Possibly my downfall. Existentialism is grand in theory, but it’s not much cop if you’re not feeling too happy with your current existence.

Indeed, as Stephin Merrit says it’s all about dressing in black, smoking clove cigarettes, drinking vermouth while reading Camus. In other words a bit of a downer. As an amateur head shrinker I think the underlying problems here are you turning 30 in the past year, coupled with Cuala’s loss of the county final, together with it being a Monday, you coming back from holidays, your guilt over the betrayal of this bird in work who is a sound skin, a natural propensity to melancholy and moroseness may be built into your psyche through your Limerick heritage and you’d a miserable day at work.

This murk can be washed away in an instant. If Bandage would simply use his influence on Rocko to set up a TFK Autumn Jamboree in the 51 we’d all have something to look forward to and the world would seem a brighter place. Over to you Bandage mate.

[briantinnion]

I feel for you Thraw. I’ve had a very traumatic few months as I tried to deal with relocating from New York to Dublin. It knocked the shit out of me. All you can do is get up in the morning. Get through the days and hope things get better.

And I’d advise cutting out the booze. I had a hugh in my first weekends back but that was only to catch up with friends. It was awful. Trying to cut it out unless absolutely necessary now until I stabilize.

In saying that I have two work dinners on Thursday night and a wedding Friday. Not to mention a stag in Amsterdam the following weekend. I’m fucked basically.