Lance, the lies and me
The Armstrong scandal ended in vindication for the journalist who first cried âcheatâ. He reveals that the memory of his son, who died cycling, helped him
David Walsh Published: 4 November 2012
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It is 3.30 on a grey Monday afternoon, at a Starbucks off the M25 and I look at a phone that is going to ring. It hasnât stopped. It wonât stop. âAbout Lance Armstrong and todayâs news, are you available to do an interview?â Canada, Australia, New Zealand, France, the US, Ireland, Holland, Belgium and so many closer to home. No, no, no, yes, no, no, no, no, yes, no, no, no, yes, no, no, no, no.
Seven requests are from the BBC: Radio 4, Radio 5 live, Radio 2, BBC Radio Foyle, BBC Belfast, Newsnight, World Service. There was a time when the Armstrong Story had black circles on its body from the BBC touching it with a 40ft barge pole. But this is the day, October 22, 2012, that he has been officially declared an outcast, banished from the sport by his own people â cyclingâs governing body, Union Cycliste Internationale (UCI). Its president, Pat McQuaid, said the former seven-time Tour de France winner âhas no place in cyclingâ.
Armstrong himself is to change the profile on his Twitter page, removing the five words â7-time Tour de France winnerâ. Heâs history now, another ageing story of cheating and lying and doping and bullying and sport that wasnât sport. An icon until the mask was taken away. âThe greatest heist sport has ever seen,â says Travis Tygart, chief executive of the United States Anti-Doping Agency.
For 13 years, this story has been a central part of my life â from the moment on the road to Saint-Flour in the Auvergne during the 1999 Tour de France that it became clear Armstrong was a fraud.
That morning, the 25-year-old French rider Christophe Bassons, nicknamed âMonsieur Propreâ for his anti-doping stance, left the Tour â although it is more true to say the Tour abandoned him. They were dirty, he was clean, but he was the problem. They ground him down, ran him out of town.
At the head of the lynch mob, lacking only a white hood and length of rope, was Armstrong. He enjoyed his enforcer role, chasing Bassons down the day after the finish to Sestriere: âHe spoke to me in English,â said Bassons, âbut I understood. âThatâs enough. You are bad for cycling. It would be better if you went home. Give up the sport. You are a small rider, you know. F*** you.ââ
In this fight, I knew the side to be on.
On the day Armstrong won his first Tour de France, I wrote a piece for The Sunday Times suggesting the achievement of the cancer survivor should not be applauded: âThere are times when it is right to celebrate, but there are other occasions when it is equally correct to keep your hands by your sides and wonder⊠[and in this case] the need for inquiry is overwhelming.â
Many readers were unimpressed.
âI was disappointed by your coverage of the Tour de France⊠I am mystified why you chose to feed readers a mixture of rumour, suspicion and innuendo,â wrote Ed Tarwinski of Edinburgh. Not one appreciated our sceptical reaction to Armstrongâs victory.
But right now, in this Starbucks, I feel no joy. Today would be the 30th birthday of our son John who was killed on his bicycle 17 years before, on June 25, 1995, just an hour before I reached home after five weeks at the Rugby World Cup in South Africa. He was 12. The day before, heâd watched the Springboks beat the All Blacks in the World Cup final, taped the game for me on a VHS cassette and filed it away with all the others he knew Iâd want to watch on my return.
Liverpool was his football team, and heâd lost his life cycling home after playing a Gaelic football match that morning. He should have stayed for soft drinks and sandwiches, but his team lost and he wouldnât have wanted to hang around. Since then his birthday has always meant more than the anniversary of the day he died, though it is intensely sad to wonder what your 12-year-old would have been like at 30. For 17 years flowers have arrived at our home from a dear friend who understands.
John was a particular kid; bright, hard, questioning, truthful, stubborn. When he was seven, his teacher, Mrs Twomey, read the story of the Nativity to the class. âAnd when Mary and Joseph and the baby Jesus went back to Nazareth, they lived a simple life, because Joseph was just a carpenter and they had very little.â
Our son couldnât let that pass. âMiss,â he asked, âyou said Mary and Joseph were very poor, but what did they do with the gold they got from the three kings?â The poor teacher had read this story for more than 30 years and nobody had ever asked about the gold. âTo be honest, John,â she said, âI donât know.â
That story stayed with me; funny, comforting, reassuring even. Something didnât add up and John asked the question. Though I feel the sadness that always comes on this day and the phone wonât stop ringing, I remember that old story and know Iâve been inspired by it. That the legend of Lance Armstrong should have been officially cremated on this day seems to me anything but coincidental.
The thing about the Armstrong scandal was that, even in 1999, the year of his first victory, you didnât need to be Woodward or Bernstein to get it. On the afternoon the American delivered his first great performance in the Alps, the stage to Sestriere, many journalists in the salle de presse laughed at the ease with which Armstrong ascended. He climbed with the nonchalance of the well-doped.
I walked through the hedgerows of journalists, stopping to speak with Philippe Bouvet, chief cycling writer of the sports daily LâEquipe, whose father, Albert, had been a pro. âDoping,â said Bouvet, âis an old story in cycling. Over the last few years the manipulation of ridersâ blood has changed the nature of competition. What we are getting now is a caricature of sport. It is killing cycling.â BenoĂźt Hopquin, a journalist with the French newspaper Le Monde, was tipped off that Armstrong had tested positive for cortisone, and that it had been covered up. Cortisone is a banned drug, but can be used by riders with a Therapeutic Use Exemption (TUE). Le Monde had been shown Armstrongâs doping control form, and he didnât have a TUE. They ran with the story.
UCI denied there had been a positive test, and said Armstrong had a TUE because of a saddle sore. At a news conference Hopquin tried to pin down Armstrong on whether he had this exemption and when it had been issued: perfectly reasonable questions, but dismissed with disdain by Armstrong. âMr Le Monde,â he said to Hopquin, referring to him by the name of his newspaper, âare you calling me a liar or a doper?â
The truth was he was both, but at that moment he wore the maillot jaune, the famed yellow jersey â and Hopquin was intimidated. He didnât reply. Not one person in a room full of journalists had a follow-up question; instead there were smiles and appreciation for the authority with which Armstrong had shot down the journalist.
The bullying of Bassons and Hopquin spoke of arrogance: Armstrong needed to be aggressive because, a year before, French customs and police had targeted the Tour and found stashes of banned drugs almost everywhere they looked. Shamed, Tour de France organisers said the 1999 race would be âThe Tour of Renewalâ, echoing pledges that the sport has always been too quick to give.
On the eve of the Tour, the organiser, Jean-Marie Leblanc, said the scandal of the drug-addled â98 race would inspire a better future. With less doping, speeds would be reduced and we would again be able to believe in the Tour de France. Long before Armstrong would ride down the Champs-ElysĂ©es in the yellow jersey, it was certain the â99 race would be the fastest in history. Through the first two weeks of the race, virtually every French newspaper reflected the scepticism that was everywhere. Each day, LâEquipe found a new way of saying it didnât believe in Armstrong. It referred to him as âThe Extra-Terrestrialâ â and not as a compliment. But LâEquipe is owned by ASO, the same company that owns the Tour de France, and after Armstrong had been subjected to a tough Pierre Ballester interview, Leblanc arranged a meeting with Jean-Michel Rouet, LâEquipeâs cycling editor.
Leblanc felt the Ballester interview read like a police interrogation, and made his feelings known to Rouet. From that moment, LâEquipe softened its attitude to Armstrong. Bouvet, Ballester and Rouet, however, wouldnât change their view that he was doping.
Before the race reached Paris, Leblanc declared that Armstrong âhad saved the Tour de Franceâ. In the clamour to acclaim the cancer heroâs journey to victory, a tidal wave rolled over the dissenters. The positive cortisone test was forgotten, the record speed was mostly not mentioned; Christophe Bassons, too, forgotten. But if you listened carefully there were some truthful voices.
Vincenzo Santoni, team director of the Italian Cantina Tollo team, shook his head sadly. âI hope we can find a way out of the mess that cycling is in,â he said during that â99 Tour. âUntil that happens, we can forget the joy of the victory.â
You could only believe in this story if you werenât bothered what Mary and Joseph did with the gold.
Already, my relationship with Armstrong had become personal. Six years earlier, I had interviewed him in the first week of his debut Tour. In a book that I wanted to be a Canterbury Tales of the Tour de France, his story would be The Rookieâs Tale. We talked for three hours in a hotel garden outside Grenoble and got on well. He was a Texan in France, so uncool you warmed to him: if his American gaucheness didnât win you over, his ambition did. Nothing was going to get in his way.
I would follow his results in the next three Tours and it wasnât hard to tell what kind of rider he was; strong on flat roads, decent on the shorter climbs, but average in solo races against the clock and physiologically unable to climb with the best in the high mountains. In four shots at the Tour â before being diagnosed with testicular cancer in late 1996 â his best finish was 36th.
I hoped he could recover and return to the sport. But when he came back, and rode much better in the mountains than heâd ever done before, I didnât believe it. At The Sunday Times there was initial excitement at the cancer victim doing so well, but once Iâd made the case for scepticism, the newspaper encouraged me in every way. On the day Armstrong won his first Tour de France the headline in this newspaper was âFlawed fairytaleâ. I was pleased, but not our readers.
From the 45 letters received, one offered encouragement. From the other 44, Keith Millerâs take touched a nerve: âI believe Armstrongâs victory was amazing, a triumph in sport and life. I believe he sets a good example for all of us. I believe in sport, in life, and in humanity⊠Sometimes we refuse to believe, for whatever reason. Sometimes people get a cancer of the spirit. And maybe that says a lot about them.â
That expression haunted me â âCancer of the spiritâ.
By the time the 2000 Tour de France was ready to roll, the Armstrong camp had identified me as trouble. Bill Stapleton, Armstrongâs attorney, manager and friend, turned up in the press room at the end of the first stage.
âDavid,â he said, âcould I have a word? Iâm Bill Stapleton.â
âYes, Bill?â
âLook, we know what youâve been writing about Lance, and youâre getting this wrong. If you were to be fairer to Lance, that could work for you in terms of access. On the other hand, if you keep writing what youâre writing, we will take action.â
âIs that a threat, Bill?â
âIt is,â he said.
Stapleton made me want to try harder, to prove what I knew to be true. The Sunday Times continued to encourage me: âPharmacy on wheels becomes a sick joke,â was the headline about the 2000 Tour. Not discouraged by the salle de presse conversation in 2000, Stapleton called me in April the following year: âDavid, I want to offer you a one-on-one interview with Lance.â Armstrong was gold dust back then; a two-time Tour winner, author of the phenomenally successful autobiography Itâs Not about the Bike, cancer icon and beacon of hope to so many.
âWhere and when?â I asked.
âIf you can get to France this week, itâs on,â he said.
We met at the Hotel La Fauvelaie near the village of St-Sylvain-dâAnjou in eastern France. He came with Stapleton.
I asked if heâd ever visited Dr Michele Ferrari, who was due to go on trial for doping that summer.
âHave I been tested by him, gone there and consulted on certain things? Perhaps,â he said.
Two months later an Italian police source would provide chapter and verse on Armstrongâs visits to Ferrari: two days in March, 1999; three days in May, 2000; two days in August, 2000; one day in September, 2000; three days in April, 2001. More than âperhapsâ.
Every sense I had of Armstrong being dishonest was confirmed by the interview. In June 2001, The Sunday Times published my investigation into Armstrong and headlined it âSaddled with suspicionâ. That investigation included evidence from Stephen Swart, a New Zealand rider and former team-mate, who said that in the Motorola team of 1995-96, Armstrong was the strongest advocate for the team getting on a doping programme.
But leaving Hotel La Fauvelaie on that April afternoon in 2001, it was clear to me that Armstrong would not be caught easily. Already, he had worked out that the world wanted to believe his story of hope and, where possible, they would protect the story. Before the end, my questions had begun to irritate him.
âThere will always be sceptics, cynics and zealots,â he said, wanting me to know that, in the end, this sound-bite would be enough. âSaddled with suspicionâ ran on the eve of the 2001 Tour, and the last line reflected how I felt about his story: âThose who expect him to falter, either on the murderous road to Alpe dâHuez or under the weight of public scepticism, may be in for a long, long wait.â
The good thing about investigating Armstrong was that there werenât many rivals trying to beat you to the story. More than that, journalist friends would hear things, but rather than run with them, they passed them on. James Startt, an American photojournalist in cycling who worked out of Paris, knew Betsy Andreu, the wife of Armstrongâs long-time team-mate, Frankie.
Startt sensed there wasnât an appetite in his own country for the story that Betsy wanted told. He gave me her number. Then a cycling journalist working for a London-based newspaper told me that Emma OâReilly, Armstrongâs former masseuse, was ready to talk. These two women would be the two most important witnesses in the case against Armstrong, because they and Swart were the first to offer direct evidence.
Betsy Andreu heard Armstrong say in Indiana University Hospital that he used performance-enhancing drugs before his testicular cancer. She said her husband, Frankie, and her then friend Stephanie McIlvain were two of the six people in the room at the time, the others being Armstrongâs coach Chris Carmichael and his then fiancĂ©e, Paige, and Bill Stapleton. Frankie Andreu and McIlvain confirmed Betsyâs account of the hospital room incident.
OâReilly told about doping in the US Postal team, and especially about Armstrongâs involvement. We spoke for seven hours and the transcript came to almost 50,000 words. It was packed with evidence of Armstrongâs doping. Around this time, the French journalist Pierre Ballester and I agreed to co-author a book about Armstrong. It would be called L.A. Confidentiel: les Secrets de Lance Armstrong.
No publisher in the UK would take it, because of Britainâs libel laws. Once the book came out, Armstrong issued writs against The Sunday Times for a piece written by deputy sports editor Alan English about allegations made in L.A. Confidentiel.
His London lawyers, Schillings, then put the frighteners on every British newspaper and broadcaster, warning that anyone repeating the allegations contained in L.A. Confidentiel would be sued.
That was just the stuff he left to his lawyers. Armstrong would also deal personally with those who had crossed him.
At a news conference at Silver Spring in Maryland on June 15, 2004, to announce a new sponsorship deal with the Discovery Channel, he was asked about OâReillyâs allegations: âI know that Emma left the team for other reasons. And even as evil as this thing has come out to be, itâs not going to be my style to attack her. I know there were a lot of issues within the team, within the management, within the other riders that were inappropriate, and she was let go.â
OâReilly was a physical therapist and he knew what he was doing when speaking of issues with riders that were âinappropriateâ. It was untrue and scurrilous allegation, and he could say it without being asked to substantiate it. About Swartâs recollection of the use of EPO â a hormone used as a performance-enhancing drug that boosts a riderâs red-blood-cell count â he didnât address the charge but spoke vaguely about Swartâs family background and some issues there. That was his style.
In an interview with the Dutch newspaper De Telegraaf, he spoke about me â and, for once, forsook innuendo. âWalsh is the worst journalist I know. There are journalists who are willing to lie, to threaten people and to steal in order to catch me out. All this for a sensational story. Ethics, standards, values, accuracy â these are of no interest to people like Walsh.â
Two days later, a letter from Schillings was couriered to The Sunday Times, reminding the newspaper that Armstrong had never taken performance-enhancing drugs and if we dared suggest he did, we would be sued. We didnât back down and we were sued. Two years of endless meetings, preparing statements, lining up witnesses, getting subpoenas â it was hell. Our case was destroyed by a ruling that said we would have to prove Armstrong doped, as opposed to showing we had the right to ask questions. Emma OâReilly spoke with journalists from the US, France and the UK. âBritain, the country where I am a citizen, is the only one where I feel I canât tell the truth. Well, I could, but I would be sued and Iâd lose. So I stopped telling the truth here; just didnât say anything.â
Britain was the only country where Armstrong allowed a libel case to proceed beyond the initial, sabre-rattling writ. Our managing editor at the time, Richard Caseby, negotiated the settlement with Armstrongâs attorney, Tim Herman, who was on his way to Scotland to play golf.
âRichard,â Herman said, âwe were never going to let this go the whole way. Lance is going to go into politics.â
In early 2004 an American writer, Daniel Coyle, began researching a book that would be published in 2005. Lance Armstrongâs War was the story of Coyleâs year inside the US Postal cycling team, and though the book would become a bestseller in America and Britain, the author wasnât allowed inside the teamâs doping sanctum. He understood that, and this was perhaps one of the reasons he ended up at my door. He would call the chapter The Crusader, and it was a flattering account of my attempt to expose Armstrong as a fraud.
During the interview, he asked about our son John. âPeople say you love all your children equally, but I donât think thatâs true,â I said. âYou love them all, but differently. And this kid, I loved more than any person Iâve ever known.â
Iâve never been good at understatement when it comes to John. We have six other children, and Johnâs sister Emily says I would be the same about each of them if they had been the one to suffer Johnâs fate.
Towards the end of his book, Coyle describes the moment he brought Armstrong a draft of the manuscript:
âOK,â Armstrong says. âWhatâs in there thatâs going to piss me off?â Before I can answer, he leans forward.
âThe Walsh stuff is not going to piss me off if itâs factual,â he says. âDonât call him the award-winning world-renowned respected guy.â
I outline whatâs in the book, mentioning that Walsh seems motivated, at least in part, by the memory of his dead son, who he said was his favourite.
Armstrongâs eyes narrow. He cracks his knuckles, one by one.
âHow could he have a favourite son? That guyâs a scumbag. Iâm a father of three⊠to say âmy favourite son,â thatâs f*****. Iâm sorry. I just hate the guy. Heâs a little troll.â
His voice rises. I try to change the subject but itâs too late. Heâs going.
âF****** Walsh,â he says. âF****** little troll.â
Iâm sitting on the couch watching, but itâs as if Iâm not there. His voice echoes off the stone walls â âtroll, casting his spell on people, liarâ â and the words blur together into a single sound, and I find myself wishing he would stopâŠ
A bird-like trill slices the air; Armstrongâs eyes dart to his phone. The spell is broken.
âListen, hereâs where I go,â Armstrong says after putting down the phone. âIâve won six tours. Iâve done everything I ever could do to prove my innocence. I have done, outside of cycling, way more than anyone in the sport. To be somebody whoâs spread himself out over a lot of areas, to hopefully be somebody who people in this city, this state, this country, this world can look up to as an example. And you know what? They donât even know who David Walsh is. And they never will. And in 20 years nobody is going to remember him. Nobody.â
After reading that section of the book, I rang Coyle and said it had deeply upset me to read Armstrong mouthing off about my relationship with my son. Coyle said Armstrong had said far worse things that he hadnât included. âYou shouldnât have included any of the stuff about John,â I said. He apologised and it was clear he meant it.
And now on this day, as I sit in this Starbucks, Armstrong has finally gone down. October 22, Johnâs birthday. I ring Betsy Andreu, in whose slipstream I have travelled in pursuit of the truth. I tell her itâs Johnâs birthday and though sheâs far away in Michigan, I can feel her sadness.
âItâs his birthday,â she says in a whisper. âThis is his little gift to you.â
Itâs a nice thought.