he isnt a cager
Great advice
Would there be anything to be said for going on an adventure. Fuck off to Asia or south America or something for a while. Fear is what holds us back from these things but it would appear you have nothing to fear really. Whats the worst that could happen?
Pal of mine does exactly that…asia and south America. He keeps an eye on some bargain flights website and books whatever is cheap- columbia for a few hundted etc. Hes a ballsy fucker though, wouldn’t think much of busing it round peru. As he says himself, “i may as well vomit in bogata for a change”
If you have nothing to lose then why the fuck not.
This is it.
I don’t want to live with the condition I have. I don’t want a life where I wake up everyday and see squiggles where I should be seeing straight lines and have to live with the knowledge that I inflicted it on myself. I don’t want that life and I’d much, much, much rather die than have that for the next 20 or 30 or 40 years. I want to live without that shit but not with it because it living with it is a misery and it makes me feel utterly worthless. Simple as.
I spose it depends on your personality. My pal is fairly gregarious. Like most north sputh derry folks he has an easy charm and a ready wit… a great passport .
If i’d a bit more motivation I’d like to just join a walking club. Spend Sundays tramping around donegal, listening to strangers talking about nothing in particular.
Do it, because you don’t know when you won’t be able to or won’t have the inclination to. In the days before live television my oul’ fella would take off on summer Sunday mornings and get the bus down to somewhere in Wicklow and walk over the hills and listen to GAA commentaries on a transistor radio. An oul’ fella I know from the pub spends his summers going off hiking around Pennines or the Yorkshire Dales with a hiking club. Savage. If you aren’t in a private hell.
Tbh honest the main reason would be for the company…walking just seems the right setting for having a yarn and getting a few hours away from my own head …i wouldn’t be looking for anything profound, just a yarn about everyday things, a tiny bit of comraderie and a day or twos’ worth of endorphins. You’d hardly think of something along those lines yourself? (We could even hold hands)
Walked there and back.
@Cheastyy my mates mother was going to lose hearing in one ear. I forget what was wrong exactly but it was advised by a surgeon. She went to a Chinese
Doctor in cork who practises alternative medicine. She’d her sorted in a few
Weeks. If I sent on the number would be interested? My dad went to the doctor as well for pains and he speaks very highly of her. Pm please.
I mentioned fhís to you before. My old man lost the sight in his eye one day. Out of nowhere. 6 months later it came back as suddenly as it had gone. Doctors had told him it would. He didn’t believe them. They are still not fully sure what happened to him but think he had a stroke in his eye which is a thing apparently. It was hugely disconcerting thing
Medication and mental health services vary considerably and what works for one person might not work for another. Do not give up.
I went through many years of looking (or running away from) mental health support in Ireland. I was banging my head against a brick wall with medication making minimal impact and mental health professionals who were anything but professional. I thought my issues (mostly related to sexuality, self-judgement and obsessions) and my situation were irretrievable. I was wrong. I had lost all perspective.
Eventually I found an excellent GP about fifteen years ago who specializes in CBT who was the gamechanger. To me the methodology is less important than the person and the connection. He put me on a different course of medication that helped lift my mood (or perhaps more accurately helped me feel less anxious and less depressed). It has taken a long time but he has genuinely changed the way I think and approach life. I now see (no pun intended) the world in less black and white.
I currently do TM twice daily, exercise daily and took some medication. I also realise that talking to certain people makes my mental health better while talking to others is only detrimental. You have a lot going for you and are clearly intelligent.
Try different professionals. Try getting into a strict sleeping routine. Try exercising vigorously. I am sure that sounds inconsequential but after a few weeks you are likely to be in a better place. Look after yourself.
You could sell tickets
Like his style
‘There has been much tragedy in my life; at least half of it actually happened.’
Mark Twain
@Cheasty have you considered taking some yokes or mushrooms or LSD?
Some people find it a gamechanger apparently
Don’t write it all off. It might take time to find the right combination of meds or the right professionals. Push for something different in your contacts. Don’t cut yourself off from help. Glad you went to the support group. Keep it going pal.
Good. Small steps