It might be worth giving this a shot before trying something foolish. Just a thought.
Give the psychiatrist another go Cheasty. Try to stop being so hard on yourself and keep posting here.
We’re all here for you Cheasty and we all want and believe you will get better.
You need to check yourself in auld stock. And stay in this time until you are right. What have you to lose at this stage? Avoiding it is not getting you anywhere.
Take care of yourself.
Mind yourself pal. For a lad that’s done a haype of suicide research I’m surprised at how poorly chosen your attempts have been. Getting hit by a bus or a train is as likely to leave you permanently gimped and in terrible pain as it is to kill you.
I don’t believe you’ll do it, and sincerely hope you don’t. I’ll get @labane over this summer and we’ll all go for a few pints.
I’d definitely recommend trying new things like the peer support group @Cheasty because reading that Facebook page is doing zero good. Glad to still have you with us on here for the thrilling Allianz Football League. Round 7 is gonna be a classic.
Hang in there. The start of the Ulster Championship from the BOX-IT Athletic Grounds is only 7 weeks away.
Just to let you know I went to it, almost to spite myself. It was a better option alright.
Good on you. Only when all options are exhausted have you no other choices. Keep at it, you’ve a lot to achieve yet.
well done
well done
As long as he didnt go by car?
he isnt a cager
Great advice
Would there be anything to be said for going on an adventure. Fuck off to Asia or south America or something for a while. Fear is what holds us back from these things but it would appear you have nothing to fear really. Whats the worst that could happen?
Pal of mine does exactly that…asia and south America. He keeps an eye on some bargain flights website and books whatever is cheap- columbia for a few hundted etc. Hes a ballsy fucker though, wouldn’t think much of busing it round peru. As he says himself, “i may as well vomit in bogata for a change”
If you have nothing to lose then why the fuck not.
A huge proportion of suicides are at root about personal feelings of inadequacy or an absence of self worth. It irritates me no end when people say “When people want to kill themselves why don’t they just leave everything and go wherever they want, they have nothing to lose etc…”
They don’t go somewhere else because they don’t want to live with themselves anymore and that’s something they can never change. Suicide becomes the one weapon they’ve left against their own powerlessness.
This is it.
I don’t want to live with the condition I have. I don’t want a life where I wake up everyday and see squiggles where I should be seeing straight lines and have to live with the knowledge that I inflicted it on myself. I don’t want that life and I’d much, much, much rather die than have that for the next 20 or 30 or 40 years. I want to live without that shit but not with it because it living with it is a misery and it makes me feel utterly worthless. Simple as.
I spose it depends on your personality. My pal is fairly gregarious. Like most north sputh derry folks he has an easy charm and a ready wit… a great passport .
If i’d a bit more motivation I’d like to just join a walking club. Spend Sundays tramping around donegal, listening to strangers talking about nothing in particular.