Thanks lads for the kind messages and replies. They’re massively appreciated. I posted last night and instantly regretted sharing that with a bunch of strangers on the internet but the cat is out of the bag now, so to speak.
I’ve been feeling awful for quite some time now and have moved onto yet another medication. It has me feeling sleepy and kinda groggy yet, so far, not any better.
I’ll keep plugging away but I’m starting to really wonder what it’s going to take for me to feel even somewhat normal again.
Anyway, I won’t post about this anymore. I’ve already shared more than I wanted. Thanks again to all.
I’ve shared things here that I’ve never really shared anywhere else. It’s generally helped talking to this absolute bunch of weird but sound cunts. Take care chief.
It will be used against you but you’ll know you’ve them rattled when they bring it up. The ‘low blow bro’ pile on will begin and there’ll be a sheepish backtrack much like @glenshane in this very thread earlier today.
Best of luck @batigol. Sometimes to achieve different results, we need to rip up the old playbook. I attended my first AA meeting in St Pats, almost a decade ago, partly because I lived nearby on Thomas St and partly because my mental state was so shot to shit by the booze etc, that I hoped they’d take one look at me and put me in a straightjacket. I still visit the odd time, to remember how bad things once were, for perspective and to try and relay some hope for those at their lowest ebb. Seems a solid joint all the same, and pivoted many in the depths of the darkness.
Best wishes @baltigol whatever you decide.
I still think the front line immigration role you were pushed into tipped the scales.
You’ll be right, you are brave. Very brave.
Good luck @Batigol you’re a sound fucker going by your posting on here with a nice line in dry wit with the odd bit of sarcasm. I love that. And you’re your own man. Hope it starts looking up for you asap.
There’s no place works for everyone. The cruelty of these things is you’ve to decide at the very time you’re least able.
But two things I’d say
A) there’s waste in this process. Finding what works is the job. Finding shit that doesn’t is progress
B) I’m surmising you’re in a bad place (Sherlock). But things do not need to be as they are and your best people are at your back. Good, but in the end, this is your gig. My advice: dive in, give it everything. But be okay if it only offers some help. That’s things getting better. There’s forwards and backwards step to come.
All my best wishes though. This is the honours course for sure
